late to be alive

by sunny b

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.

      name your price

     

1.
01:55
2.
01:27
3.
01:20
4.
01:25
5.
6.
01:04
7.
01:44

credits

released December 24, 2016

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

sunny b Iowa

anyway, here's wonderwall

contact / help

Contact sunny b

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: sweet violet
it’s been a woozy, weary night my darling
i hope that you will stay until the warmth of morning
i’d like to replace every atom in my body
with anything that would make you love me

powdered sugar tears and feelings that run
straight into the dusk and burn in the sun
oh sweet violet, tranquil and quiet
only in my dreams would life be so worth it

it’s been a swift, easy life my sweetheart
i hope that you will stay until the second we part
i’d like to replace every thought in my head
with anything but the image of you dead

cranberry juice blood and feelings that die
buried in the ground next to you next to i
oh sweet violet, tranquil and quiet
only in my nightmares would death be so worth it
Track Name: day to day
haven’t written a single song
i don’t feel sad i just feel numb
i can’t think of anything poetic
i stay up late, i get my paycheck
every thursday that you don’t call
i start to wonder if i’m human at all

day to day, hour to hour
life is big but it could be smaller
minute to minute, second to second
life can be long, but i’m just guessing

haven’t written a single entry
these days nothing ever happens to me
a vivid dream about feeling
a vivid dream about nothing
i think i’m alive i know i’m breathing
you know the heart’s a liar, i could be faking

day to day, hour to hour
life is big but it could be smaller
minute to minute, second to second
life can be long, but i’m just guessing
Track Name: rude song
i hope you’re having a really bad time
i’m sorry if that’s rude, but i’m not full of sunshine
i hope you feel really awful for what you did
because you don’t seem to care that you’re full of shit

i know i’m having a really bad time
not because of you, but i still think of that sometimes
i still am bitter for how badly it hurt
but it’s ok i burned that shirt

that i borrowed
burned my sorrow
i won’t see you tomorrow
my heart is hallow

i hope you’re having a really bad time
i’m sorry if that’s rude, but i’m not full of sunshine
i hope you feel really awful for what you did
because you don’t seem to care that you’re full of shit
Track Name: sad chad
it all went bad for you, poor chad
you lost it all, didn’t you? sad chad?

isn’t it just a shame?
you had just turned eighteen
now we only see you behind a glass screen
in that prison that you will never leave

chad you had a chance to be alive
now all you can do is learn to survive
blood in the sink and grease in your hair
you didn’t think but you don’t really care

isn’t it such a shame?
you had just turned eighteen
so you got tried as a legal adult
because you lost it and slit that man’s throat

it all went bad for you, poor chad
you lost it all, didn’t you? it makes me sad
Track Name: thank u for hurting me because now i really get what yeats was talking about
thank god for those who have hurt me
because the pain sustains me
and my art is suddenly pretty
and i’m starting to understand poetry
Track Name: remind me
remind me that i’m still standing here
take my hands, hold them tight, keep them warm my dear
sing me lullabies and stroke what’s left of my hair
keep me close to you until i disappear

remind me why i’m still breathing now
will you close the curtains while i take my last bow
no applause today no commission to be found
days like this make the world go down

remind me that there is still a reason
check my pulse can you tell me am i still breathing?
the wind is knocked from my lungs
my shoulders are hunched living weighs a ton
Track Name: screwup
nicotine is nothing like this, baby
yea we all got problems i’m sorry
i wish i could say something to take your mind off it
but it doesn’t help, does it?
i mostly feel empty, but when i feel something, i don’t know who to thank
thank god i guess thank god i guess and now even further i digress
i feel like absolutely nothing
does it always feel like this or can you get over it
is this the best that it gets
i’m sorry mom how are you dad would you be pissed?
would you just cut me off just cut me at the wrists
i’ll hurry off so i don’t make a mess on your carpet

i’m sorry mommy, how are you daddy?
i'm barely a person, are you still proud of me?